Another Baby?!?!?

The thought of having another baby has been running through my mind lately. Lots of mommies have been announcing they are expecting and everyone around here is worried about "drinking the water" so to speak!!! I find myself thinking that it may not be such a bad idea to have a drink of it! LOL 

I think the only thing holding me back is the thoughts of having another baby with kidney/ bladder issues and reliving all of the past two years again. But, every time I see a wee little baby, my heart starts aching with baby fever and it does not seem to be going away like I thought it would.  

Toxic People

I have come to realize that I have a few toxic people in my life. I need to get away from them so that they will stop pulling me down along with them! 

 

Not sure what I mean by toxic?? Here is an example: 

"Who are the severely toxic people?

They are the ones who complain all the time. They are the ones who always blame you. They may always turn things around so things you felt they had done wrong are suddenly your fault. They overreact to bad events.

They drain your energy. It may be that they get you to spend a lot of time and emotional strength trying to cheer them up. They may bombard you with their negativity so that you have to spend energy trying to fend it off. Perhaps their constant pessimism infects you, or they always make you angry. They may be leeches who feed themselves by making you give them your positivity."

I am trying to distance myself from these people and get my life back in order. I have days where I just feel like a pile of poop and I am finally realizing that it is when I talk to these certain people that I start to be down and upset about everything! I need to change this now for myself, my husband and my daughter before I also become toxic to them! So, I am going to step back and start removing the toxic people from my life! I don't need them there discouraging me or taking advantage of me anymore! Here is to doing some weeding in my life!!! 

A Busy August...

This month has already been a busy one with no signs of slowing down! We had a house full when Jody's aunt came down to visit with the kids, then we decided to keep Chris and Allie here for the week. We drove them up to West Virginia to meet Delcie, had lunch and then drove home! 

Jody has an all day softball tournament this coming weekend and Kylie and I have a birthday party to attend the same day! Kylie has an ultrasound on the 25th to check on everything since her surgery. We are hoping for the best possible news! Not having to go every few months to see the urologist would be great! We can't wait for the day that we are told she can finally go off her antibiotics! It has become our nightly ritual but it would be a nice one to give up!! 

Jody's sister is due any day now and then we will be planning a trip home to PA! This trip is long overdue!! We haven't been home since Christmas and I am feeling very homesick! I miss everyone back in PA and can't wait to visit real soon! 

My name is Hope...

and I feel like a doormat!!! I am (or so I think) one of the nicest people that you can possibly meet and lately I have been feeling that some of my friends are taking advantage of that fact! I love to help people. It is in my nature but I am really starting to feel like some people are friends with me just for the benefit of having someone that they can always count on to go out of their way to help them when they need it. I don't mind doing stuff for people but when it is obvious that I am being used, then it starts to upset me. I normally don't ask for much in return but lately I have been used as a taxi, and a daycare with promises to do the same in return. When those services have no longer been needed, the promises of hubby and I having a free date night or I'll take you anywhere you need to go have been forgotten. 

I guess it is mostly my fault as well. I let it happen over and over yet I feel like helping a friend out when they need it is part of a friendship! It is just so frustrating! 

Good News!

We had Kylie's follow up appointment for her ultrasound yesterday and things went very well!! My nerves were getting the best of me all morning and when we walked into the room and saw a ultrasound machine there, my thoughts were going everywhere. The urologist came in the room and told us that everything looked good! *sigh of relief* Her left kidney is a little swollen but that is most likely from the surgery, her ureter that was enlarged before surgery is now looking normal and her bladder is looking great! They did cath her to get a urine sample so that they can check it since she had a 103 fever over the weekend. We are thinking it was just a bug since it went away on its own but we feel that it is better to be safe then sorry when it comes to her running fevers! 

We will be going back in for another ultrasound on August 25th with a follow up with the urologist right after. At least we won't have to wait for those results!!